This is purely an academic exercise. I'm not using this to judge myself, nor am I using this as a weight loss tool. Nothing to do with thinspo or dieting. Just a true and honest account of what goes in my mouth.
lemonygrrl asked: Such a wonderful idea you came up with! Thinking about doing the same! Not sure if I'll post the pictures, though... I'll see! <3 PS. I hope you don't mind?!
I don’t mind at all - I’m sure I’m not the first person to come up with the idea. although I haven’t really checked…?
oh hi there!
i think i just wrapped up my fourth day of blogging. it has been eye opening, for sure. **edit** i started FIVE days ago! ooo girl!
first off, i have eleven followers?! that’s eleven more than i thought i would have.i didn’t think anyone would be interested in seeing all the things that go into my mouth. hi there.
second: this blog has had an unexpected effect on my eating habits. one that i really like. i said at the beginning that i’m not going to judge what goes in my mouth, just record it. i am sticking to that, mostly (although is it really possible to avoid judging what we eat, especially in a culture that teaches us that almost all foods are wrong? but i digress).
the effect it is having is that by taking a photo of everything i eat, i am forced to eat much more mindfully. now, “mindful” can have a diet-y connotation to me, which i do not want, but i mean “mindful” in the way that i am forced to CONTEMPLATE everything that i eat, its very existence, in a way that i did not before.
before i started this blog, snacks would disappear into my mouth unheeded, almost untasted. i would have no recollection of them after. i would walk to the fridge and shove a forkful of something into my mouth. that happened easily up to ten times a day. i am a comfort eater, and i am also sensitive, so i often need comfort. i also spend a lot of time working at home alone. this is often cause for a snack free for all. in fact i almost never ate “meals.”
now, because i know i am photographing everything i am eating, i put it on a plate. it may sound ridiculous that this is something that i never did, but it’s true. i ate cold food, standing up, out of containers. styrofoam. bags, boxes, and jars.
now that i know i am photographing, and people are looking, i make an effort to put my food on a plate, make it aesthetically pleasing. i think about presentation. i think about combination. i place the plate on the table, so it will look nice against its wood backdrop. i have taken to using a placemat.
I HAVE NOT DONE THIS BEFORE.
isn’t it sad that i would go out of my way to make my own food look appetizing, aesthetically pleasing, to someone else, but i have never done this for myself?
just this small act of self-care has very much boosted my mood.
so, again, it’s only been four days, but i am already very glad i am pursuing this personal project.
and if you are following me, hello and thank-you!